Your SoulMate Predicted

My friend Ruthie had a party on sunday. She'd invited a friend of hers to come down and do tarot reading for us, if we wanted them. Unlike other parties where you've got tupperware or candles and only half the people you invited show up, everybody and then some showed up for this one. Christine, the reader, was only going to read for ten people--and I was short-listed. At the end of the day there were two of us who were short-listed, and Christine said she'd stay the extra half-hour and do one more reading.

Which ended up being for me.

So, I gave her my name, and Steady Eddie's, and birthdates.

She asked me if I was starting a business venture of some kind...and I said I wasn't sure...."but you're going to get a job"

That was great news! I could use the steady income.

"and go back to school."

Which was even better news.

She mentioned that Steady Eddie would be getting a new job....that he might ask me to move in with him (surprisingly, he mentioned it last night, in conjunction with a job interview and the distinct possibility of getting the job.)

and the she said "but...there's...."

"another one?" I volunteered.

"yeah! another guy."

So, she asked his name and I told her not just his name, but his situation. "oh, he's getting divorced," she said, and had me draw five cards on him. "He hasn't been happy and he's been held back from what he wants to do. This will be a good thing for him and he will be very successful afterward."

and then "he's a soul mate."

Oh. Crap. That Term. Y'all know my feelings about soul mates. I have a bit of trouble with the concept.

But what about Steady Eddie? "oh, he'll be there as long as you need him. and then he'll go away."

That's better than what other readers have said--that he comes and goes. That phrase never really made sense because he's always there, always dependable.

I guess he's dependable because I need him. It gives him a place to be. but he can get along without me.

Most unfortunately, though, Lucky Bastard is my soul mate. Or at least "a soulmate." Maybe she didn't want to say the soulmate because of his situation. Then again, maybe we have more than one soulmate in our lives. I don't know. I used to read, and I figured that soulmates were always one to a person. Maybe that's changed.

But how the heck am I supposed to deal with that one??

So, I asked more about school, and we drew some cards on it. Apparently I have a choice between two programs, but the shorter of the two (the Master's, obviously) is the one where I will, in the short run, make my noteriety. "We'll be reading about you on line and in print," she said and smiled.

It won't be without trouble--jealousy from younger students (oh, what else is new there?) and there's some jealousy from another woman in my life now.

Man, I hate the whole jealousy thing. It's not like I've got all that freakin' much to be jealous of. That's been the case my whole life though. If it wasn't my sister or my mother or now my father, it's someone else.

Criminey people! get lives!

Christine's got a great smile, and she's has a wonderful, warm spirit--very different from other readers. I was very surprised how she wasn't judgemental about Lucky Bastard, even though she knew he's married.

Yet I *still* have trouble with the soul mate idea.

What am I going to do about it? you ask...Am I going to open my big mouth and blirt it out? Absolutely not. That's not for me to do. He has to clean his own house, straighten himself out. Make his own choices.

I have this need, this drive, to get ahead by getting an education, not by blirting out some stupid stuff like "did you know a tarot reader told me you're my soul mate?"

That would be massively stupid and completely immature.

I don't have time for soulmates right now. If it's real, he'll be there when we're both ready--not while we're half-baked. That could only screw up both of us in the long run.

Besides, who knows...if there is more than one soulmate for each of us, then Lucky Bastard can easily be set free. Someone else will be there when I get to where I need to be. I'm certainly not there now.

For that matter, I can let go of both Steady Eddie and Lucky Bastard--with love and understanding. I don't need to end things bitterly. I don't like bitter, angry endings anyway. I'd rather we all stay in touch, keep the good memories, not create ugly ones. I know I will have too much to do and accomplish, and any negative emotions will only get in my way.

So, I'm concentrating on working and school. I have things I have to do. I want to get out of where I am--move up to where I should be. Make that impact on the world that Christine saw I would. All that soulmate stuff will have to wait.