Posting a little longer

...I have felt massively out of sorts since I shut this blog down, then turned it back on again....

I lost a connection--a vital connection--to a particular community.

However, I still don't know what to do about this blog. I want to be able to write openly, to be in search again, and all that.

Yet I fear if I do so that I will screw myself professionally--even though I don't write about any of my work here. I feel I'll end up screwing myself because I've chosen to be vulnerable and to show my "soft underbelly"....

Which seemed to bring a lot of very good people to me.

I don't know. It's confusing sometimes.

But one thing: I will leave this blog up and open for now. It's pretty much a day-by-day thing. But nothing bad's happening. So, I guess it's o.k.....